I have been going through a lot of hard stuff lately. I have recently been trying to be more open with the fact to EVERYONE that I am transgender not gay. Technically yes I am gay, but I do not see myself as a guy nordo iI even want to be a guy anymore. I want to be the furthest thing from a boy and people don’t seem to understand its like having a guy and girl switch bodies and tell them not to make the body fit to their liking. Its like someone telling you that you can’t dress or look a certain way you want. So why do transgender people get so judges for dressing and looking the way they want. People don’t seem to understand how much confidence and strength it takes to do what we do. But my attitude towards it is the people judging are insecure with themselves and always will be. Another thing that pisses me off is when guys tell me I’m a fetish. Excuse me! I am a human and I know some people are into some aren’t but that’s just like with anyone, everybody has their own taste in people. I am human not a sex doll so stop telling me I’m a fetish. All you beautiful transgender girls just always remember how strong you are and just keep working it girls, take shit from nobody!
After everything it ends like this? I have been here for you through thick and thin. I know you had to support me for a while but you didn’t even give me a fucking chance. I just started my job and haven’t even gotten my first paycheck. That is bullshit. I can’t believe you are doing this to me right now. I will always be here for you. Always remember that. I don’t hate you. I never will or could. I know you feel the opposite about me. The fact that you can sit there and say I have never done anything for you and that I am selfish is just wrong. I think about you all the time. “How would this effect Matthew”
“What can I do to make him more happy”
I’m sorry I haven’t done anything sexy wise to please you yet. But in all honesty we don’t have sex nearly as much as we use to and we have both been so stressed. I’m sorry I haven’t done what you wanted me to do yet. But I really was going to last night when you got home. But you broke up with me instead. I was so excited to see you when you got home and you were so happy and all over me before you left. I didn’t even see this fucking coming. Ok if you are on grindr talking to your friends, that’s cool. But you weren’t. If you read your profile you were not just looking to talk to friends. I love you and would still do anything for you. Just please always remember that :’c
I hate that feeling when you are not sure what exactly it is you are feeling